Today I Was Unkind to Myself
When I got into my car after work, I felt like crap.
Not physically. Work wasn’t particularly stressful. No terribly cranky customers to deal with. I have no excuse.
Negativity swirled around me. The darkest side of me relished it. If there was a negative conversation, I wanted to hear it and add my energy to it. My nostrils were filled with the stench of it.
Feeding the Beast Drained Me
I mindlessly lavished my precious life time like cash raining down over a greedy whore. The negativity scooped it up and siphoned it like fuel from a gas tank, until the day was done.
I was left with nothing of value. Except perhaps this story.
A Simple Lesson in Kindness
That’s all. I failed to be kind to myself today. I did not respect myself. I did not honor myself. I did not demand the best of my soul to show up. I was lazy.
The only person I harmed today was me. Whenever I am unkind to others–even in my internal attitude–the less kindness I have shown first to myself.
I Am Resolved
This is my resolution:
I will love and respect myself. I will spend the time necessary to nurture my insecurities so that they may not be turned as weapons on another. I will be gracious to myself so that I can extend grace to another. I will fill my soul with gratitude until it overflows.
Then I will reach out in kindness to my brothers and sisters. I will not turn my soul’s eye from their deep hurt. May the love that burns within me flood my life with an unquenchable flame and ravish the hearts of humanity for we are all one of each other. (Lest I forget)